I haven’t been on in quite some time and I would like to say this is for good reason and it is in some ways. Life has been a bit of a chaotic mess lately which leads me to sinking into my own mind and refraining from delving into the social realm. On one hand, I have officially gotten a new job within my career field which will help me reach my end goal. I am also one test away from officially getting my bachelors degree so I can begin my masters program. On the other hand, my mental state has been terrible and I have been having a difficult time getting my mind back to an optimistic state.
I know that writing has always been a wonderful outlet for me but I have taken it for granted and decided I would not do it. I know that this is the only way I can truly cope, especially since I am not an emotional person and will never feel comfortable expressing my problems with other individuals no matter how close I may be to them. I have been doing a bit better but I am still emotionally struggling. This downward spiral is something that reminds me that others may feel this way as well which is why I wanted to reach out to you all and remind you that we are all struggling in our own way. Loneliness isn’t an option with over 7 million people in the world. Your trauma, depression, anxiety or sadness will come to an end eventually and if you need an open ear, I am here for you. I wish I took advantage of when people told me this.